So i have the once patience in the world. I hate waiting for the things I need and want. Especially when it comes to love and relationships.
You know how, when you were younger, adults around you would tell you to treat people how you would like to be treated. Well it left me to believe that if i did right by others that they would acknowledge, appreciate, and reciprocate the behavior back to me. BOY WAS I WRONG.
The older i get the more disturbed and disgusted I am by the human race in general. MEN are constantly playing this role as a DAWG...thinking that there is strength in disrespecting and degrading women. Getting them pregnant, yet compromising the womans character by asking for a DNA test. And when they find out that they are indeed the father, they step away from the responsibility because they dont want to deal with the baby's mother. WOMEN are so caught up in the INDEPENDENT WOMAN bull crap that they are using as an excuse to sleep around with several men at once, wearing revealing clothes, and ultimately making it okay for men to continue to not take care of their responsibilties because we want to be STRONG and act as though we dont need them.
Its getting out of hand and this is not the way GOD planned for the relationship between man and woman to be. We are just disrespecting ourselves, each other, and GOD. No one dates anymore, women are no longer courted, marriage is at an all time low and divorce at an all time high, and single parenthood is becoming the norm for households.
What is happening?
How am i suppose to believe that if I follows GODs will that marriage and family will be in my future, when it seems that no one else cherishes what GOD wants us to hold near to our hearts. Love, Sex, Relationships (healthy ones), family, GOD!!
Im trying to be patient and see what GOD has in store for me, but if i didnt have faith in GOD and had faith in MAN...well i would have given up a long time ago.
~LOCKE!~
Monday, July 11, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
"Its not you, Its me!" Wait, What?
Hello everyone and welcome to my blog. I wanted to start a blog to just release the thoughts that run through my mind and hopefully touch someone who can relate to the tings that i am going through at the moment.
So, basically i got dumped like 3 weeks ago right! yea i know sucks. And not only did i get dump but it was kind of the " Its not you, Its me" whole thing. Wait, what? lol I never understood that cowardly saying. this is basically the conversion...
Okay so basically this is how i feel about this kind of thing. I never said i wasn't unhappy, and if i am such great catch why in the heck would you give me up so that another man can have me like really? Jerk!! If you didnt want to be in a relationship just say that but dont try to let me down by buttering me up like that will make me feel better. Saying all these things like "I love you" and "I still want to be with you" and "maybe we will be together again in the future" is just not being real. I was with you for a year and honestly was never going anyway! I think the fact that you finally found a chick that all she asked was to be a part of your life scared you and you ran! But you ran still reaching out your hand for me! You broke up with me in a way to make you feel good, you didnt care about how your 2 hour speech would make me feel. My thing is i never asked for this!!!
Now i know some may say, "hey, thats his loss" and "you will find someone else that will appreciate you," and you may be right. But just like any other mad black woman sometimes i want my revenge...i want him to hurt the way i did when he decided that he was doing me a favor...fool i can make decisions for myself u dont have to make them for me..im pretty sure if what i wanted was to break up thats what i would have done. but i digress.
So clearly i needed to vent a little but hey i know im not the only person who feels like crap after being dump and honestly i really cant give u a clear reason why i got dumped...it still makes no sense to me. But i know that when i least expect it someone will come along and change my life for the better again...hopefully this time he wont be some whack, workaholic, coward who when things start getting serious runs away from a blessing!
So, basically i got dumped like 3 weeks ago right! yea i know sucks. And not only did i get dump but it was kind of the " Its not you, Its me" whole thing. Wait, what? lol I never understood that cowardly saying. this is basically the conversion...
Him: Kendra, you are such an amazing, incredible person and im in love with you, but i feel that you deserve better and i dont want to hold you back from being happy and with someone who deserves you. I have been unfair to you in this relationship and blah blah blah blah...
Me: Wait, What?
Okay so basically this is how i feel about this kind of thing. I never said i wasn't unhappy, and if i am such great catch why in the heck would you give me up so that another man can have me like really? Jerk!! If you didnt want to be in a relationship just say that but dont try to let me down by buttering me up like that will make me feel better. Saying all these things like "I love you" and "I still want to be with you" and "maybe we will be together again in the future" is just not being real. I was with you for a year and honestly was never going anyway! I think the fact that you finally found a chick that all she asked was to be a part of your life scared you and you ran! But you ran still reaching out your hand for me! You broke up with me in a way to make you feel good, you didnt care about how your 2 hour speech would make me feel. My thing is i never asked for this!!!
Now i know some may say, "hey, thats his loss" and "you will find someone else that will appreciate you," and you may be right. But just like any other mad black woman sometimes i want my revenge...i want him to hurt the way i did when he decided that he was doing me a favor...fool i can make decisions for myself u dont have to make them for me..im pretty sure if what i wanted was to break up thats what i would have done. but i digress.
So clearly i needed to vent a little but hey i know im not the only person who feels like crap after being dump and honestly i really cant give u a clear reason why i got dumped...it still makes no sense to me. But i know that when i least expect it someone will come along and change my life for the better again...hopefully this time he wont be some whack, workaholic, coward who when things start getting serious runs away from a blessing!
*Locke*
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