So, basically i got dumped like 3 weeks ago right! yea i know sucks. And not only did i get dump but it was kind of the " Its not you, Its me" whole thing. Wait, what? lol I never understood that cowardly saying. this is basically the conversion...
Him: Kendra, you are such an amazing, incredible person and im in love with you, but i feel that you deserve better and i dont want to hold you back from being happy and with someone who deserves you. I have been unfair to you in this relationship and blah blah blah blah...
Me: Wait, What?
Okay so basically this is how i feel about this kind of thing. I never said i wasn't unhappy, and if i am such great catch why in the heck would you give me up so that another man can have me like really? Jerk!! If you didnt want to be in a relationship just say that but dont try to let me down by buttering me up like that will make me feel better. Saying all these things like "I love you" and "I still want to be with you" and "maybe we will be together again in the future" is just not being real. I was with you for a year and honestly was never going anyway! I think the fact that you finally found a chick that all she asked was to be a part of your life scared you and you ran! But you ran still reaching out your hand for me! You broke up with me in a way to make you feel good, you didnt care about how your 2 hour speech would make me feel. My thing is i never asked for this!!!
Now i know some may say, "hey, thats his loss" and "you will find someone else that will appreciate you," and you may be right. But just like any other mad black woman sometimes i want my revenge...i want him to hurt the way i did when he decided that he was doing me a favor...fool i can make decisions for myself u dont have to make them for me..im pretty sure if what i wanted was to break up thats what i would have done. but i digress.
So clearly i needed to vent a little but hey i know im not the only person who feels like crap after being dump and honestly i really cant give u a clear reason why i got dumped...it still makes no sense to me. But i know that when i least expect it someone will come along and change my life for the better again...hopefully this time he wont be some whack, workaholic, coward who when things start getting serious runs away from a blessing!
*Locke*
